Life is strange.
I'm currently working on a drawing that I haven't put much thought into but now that I am I really think it could be my best yet. The main object is a face, but behind the face there are wires running around the page in a kind of detailed circles. I could explain it pretty easily and say that the society is the one controlling the cords, and I believe that up to a point.
I believe that the way our society works with what is right and wrong by its standards influences our daily decisions such as: What we wear, what we like, and even what we eat and when we eat it. Not all of them are bad, but in other cases it is very bad. What we like for example.
Kids are cruel. No one is going to object to that fact, but when we change our mind sets to please society, which many of us do whether we do it consciously or subconsciously is a different matter. Anyway, when we change our mindesets to please society some interests may be broken because we don't want to be different or stick out because it makes life much more difficult than it should be. I was influenced by this to the extremes in middle school. Having come from a private school where I was completely oblivious to the unspoken rules of society, I ran into such a culture shock at a vital period in my life. I will never switch schools on my kids like that just because I remember how hard it was on me to switch...
Anyway, the unspoken rules all of the other kids knew but didn't decide to tell me, I learned eventually but not like all the other kids. Some of these carmel brats knew the rules before they even went to middle school, most likely because of older siblings, but these created a (not really upper since we are at carmel but I guess so) a Bratty class. These are the ones that take the rules overboard and turn into whores and alcoholics. Then we have the Snobs. These kids are upper class and they show they are upper class by acting like they are in their own Gossip Girl tv series. The Snobs are mostly friendly with one another cuz they hafta stick together, but at the same time they are constantly gossiping about their 'friends' and always hafta worry about the same for them. Fun.
After them we get to the Above Average team. They are good at everything and keep their noses out of things they shouldn't and are generally liked by everyone. Congrats. The fact that I actually on occasion do express an emotion other than happiness keeps me out of this group. Just kidding folks.
Shall I keep going? There are three or four more class groups but lets go to the bottom of the ladder if i can spell it right. The Nerds. These people are smart and intelligent and the ones that can actually communicate on an emotional level with people without it being awkward are really nice, and I like em. Problem? They don't know the general rules of Socialness. They don't follow the social rules and they are thrown at the bottom of the caste. Unfair, yes. But unfortunately the same thing works in real life. The guy that has the coolest car is seen as better than the guy driving the 1980 Oldsmobile. So on a side note, why is it again that adults think kids are so cruel when they do the exact same thing?
In any case, the caste flips after college. Many of the Brats and Snobs don't make it thru cuz they get knocked up about their Sophmore year or OD on drugs and their hearts stop. Whatever the case it leaves the Above Average class the top spot and Nerds are still at the bottom next to people who decide to go to Ivy Tech.
So guess what I just figured out? Why Americans go through a generation of complete idiots and then a generation of smarts. The Brats and Snobs drop out early cuz they get knocked up, their kids are frickin retarded, they go to school and fail and become the next president or whatever until a decade later all the Above Average to Nerds make babies when they are suposed to and make smart babies who go on to fix everything the stupids made. Make sense? Hahhahahaha. Didn't think so.
Hope you enjoyed.
Monday, October 26, 2009
Monday, August 31, 2009
The Madness
I'm gonna be all phylisophical again today because other than my thoughts my life is beginning to bore even me. My life is consisting of work, school, and sean if i can get him in. SO here it goes.
What is the reason behind the social hysteria resulting in the Red Scare and the Salem Witch Trials? If you don't know what the Red Scare is let me update you. The short version: Picture the Salem Witch Trials during the 50s when Communism is on the rise and Joseph McCarthy comes out with a list of 57 congress and house members that are currently in office that are 'supposedly
communists in order to get votes for the upcoming elections. To keep his face he goes into it. The inquisitions begin, and if you are not on the side of the american government and capitalism guess what you are gonna be suspected of? Fun yeah?
Anyway. My hypothesis to this problem is that the average person is smart, but people are stupid and are easily convinced of something that when given decent thought is obviously hysteria ESPECIALLY when faced with a danger they have no knowledge of and must trust on something (religion, capitalism) or someone (Courts, God, McCarthy) to convict and judge. (Man i keep going back to that stinkin Men in Black analogy!!!)
For Example. Right now I'm reading The Crucible, actually I just finished it today, and I sided with the most tragic character as my favorite, of course! John Proctor, and I was dumbfounded in the end when they actually hanged him for witchcraft. Now of course the author meant to parallel the red scare with something completely insane like the Salem Witch Trials to show the reader how absurd the whole time period was, but I thought of the injustice these people had to suffer through and it just made me sick. Injustice is something I loathe and abhorr and connects a bit with the inward struggle I've had with what is really truth (See Last Post), and to see someone stand up for something they KNOW to be true (and by truth I do mean the truth and not just the perception of truth as I talked about last time) and to be judged so harshly because of it. Its a 'if you don't follow us your against us' kind of mentality that drives the main force behind the pious Puritan authority.
Interesting huh? Alone the seperate person such as Proctor and Giles are smart, they know the motivations behind the trials, but Salem as a City and a Theocracy is stupid, first for putting their faith into a theocracy for their societies, and second for being so easily mannipulated by putting their faith into a girl who they know to be an antagonist because of previous events. So maybe its just putting your faith in the wrong people that makes them stupid, but how scared can you have to be to choose that over Proctor, someone who levels with you and has a clear mind free of the supernatural? Because even from the outset when I knew he was a lecher I still would have trusted him over Abigail.
I'm sure I'll continue this tomorrow but as I am tired I will go to sleep now.
What is the reason behind the social hysteria resulting in the Red Scare and the Salem Witch Trials? If you don't know what the Red Scare is let me update you. The short version: Picture the Salem Witch Trials during the 50s when Communism is on the rise and Joseph McCarthy comes out with a list of 57 congress and house members that are currently in office that are 'supposedly
communists in order to get votes for the upcoming elections. To keep his face he goes into it. The inquisitions begin, and if you are not on the side of the american government and capitalism guess what you are gonna be suspected of? Fun yeah?
Anyway. My hypothesis to this problem is that the average person is smart, but people are stupid and are easily convinced of something that when given decent thought is obviously hysteria ESPECIALLY when faced with a danger they have no knowledge of and must trust on something (religion, capitalism) or someone (Courts, God, McCarthy) to convict and judge. (Man i keep going back to that stinkin Men in Black analogy!!!)
For Example. Right now I'm reading The Crucible, actually I just finished it today, and I sided with the most tragic character as my favorite, of course! John Proctor, and I was dumbfounded in the end when they actually hanged him for witchcraft. Now of course the author meant to parallel the red scare with something completely insane like the Salem Witch Trials to show the reader how absurd the whole time period was, but I thought of the injustice these people had to suffer through and it just made me sick. Injustice is something I loathe and abhorr and connects a bit with the inward struggle I've had with what is really truth (See Last Post), and to see someone stand up for something they KNOW to be true (and by truth I do mean the truth and not just the perception of truth as I talked about last time) and to be judged so harshly because of it. Its a 'if you don't follow us your against us' kind of mentality that drives the main force behind the pious Puritan authority.
Interesting huh? Alone the seperate person such as Proctor and Giles are smart, they know the motivations behind the trials, but Salem as a City and a Theocracy is stupid, first for putting their faith into a theocracy for their societies, and second for being so easily mannipulated by putting their faith into a girl who they know to be an antagonist because of previous events. So maybe its just putting your faith in the wrong people that makes them stupid, but how scared can you have to be to choose that over Proctor, someone who levels with you and has a clear mind free of the supernatural? Because even from the outset when I knew he was a lecher I still would have trusted him over Abigail.
I'm sure I'll continue this tomorrow but as I am tired I will go to sleep now.
Monday, August 24, 2009
If knowledge is power what is truth?
Today I'm going to be debating with myself. I've been thinking about Knowing the Truth a lot lately. How can one know what is really true? Is it a feeling, a fact? Because here are the facts, if one person KNOWS something is TRUE, but another person KNOWS that TRUTH to be FALSE then what in fact is TRUE?
Some would say every person has his own truth, but wait, yes i have an argument for that too, if one person KNOWS that if he runs off the cliff he will fall and die and that is TRUTH to him, but another person KNOWS that if he runs of that cliff he will in fact fly over to the other side without a scratch though he has never done it before and to him that is TRUTH, wouldn't that be considered false? Maybe that was a silly example but you get the idea. Therefore not everyone can have their own truth because they can contradict each other as well as the facts. But then you can get into what is really fact and yes i do have an argument against myself for that one too so I do not believe I will get into that today. For right now fact is fact. Gravity wins.
So if I have in fact disproved the idea that every man has his own truth, then what are my options left? That there is one truth only and that everyone who does not believe in that truth is wrong, a semi-christian belief, or that there is not truth at all just varying perspectives and the one that is agreed upon the most or the loudest is considered fact? The latter seems unlikely because a couple hundred years ago everybody KNEW that the world was flat, everybody KNEW that the earth was the center of the universe, and now look at what we know today. Sorry if I'm going a little Men in Black on yah, but its a good point. If we KNEW all that stuff was TRUE and it was in fact not, imagine what we will KNOW tomorrow. Yet I believe that this is the most socially excepted and expected form of truth. Evolution is one example.
If you don't believe it you're stupid, but polls show that the majority of people don't even know what all evolution covers, or even the real meaning. They just take the spoon feeding of so called experts that have a loud voice. Often times it is easier for us to understand a story than a truth, a perspective than a reality. Does it mean there can't be some grain of truth in evolution or perhaps even a whole truth? No, it could be true, but the fact that people trust in the loudest truth makes this argument interesting. Its the TRUTH that people hear the most so it becomes what they KNOW, but if what they KNOW turns out to not be the TRUTH then what? You're stuck at square one again.
So if the agreeing on one perspective that may or may not be true is not truth than what is? The christian belief of one truth, one way makes sense in a way, but it also requires a sense of faith and trust in a book that has a rather bloody and unpopular reputation. It also requires you to believe that EVERYONE else is wrong. If you think of it in terms of religion you can understand the significance of that statement. If everyone else is wrong, all religions, that means that those who have diligently memorized the whole frickin Qu'ran are just kidding themselves, their faith is useless and they will be sent to hell for KNOWING a different TRUTH than the one TRUTH. The atheists will for KNOWING something different, and a Bhuddist for his faith in the wrong TRUTH. Does that seem messed up to anybody besides me? This is actually the reason I began to think about truth.
We were at church a couple weekends ago and the pastor was preaching on Predestination, what I have previously believed to be an extremeist Calvinistic belief. Yeah...I was wrong...I had a very strong emotional reaction to what he was saying, upon further examination I realized why. If you do not understand the concept of predestination or have never heard of it before this may be a bit difficult to understand, but it basically means there are a certain group of people called 'the elect' that will go to heaven and the rest will roast in eternal damnation. The pastor was trying to convey that we should feel secure because of this, that our faith cannot be taken away from us. I wasn't relieved at all. Sure there is quite a large population of Christians on the planet, but there are also larger numbers of people who are not, people who KNOW something else to be TRUE and may be punished eternally for it.
It just does not seem right to me that knowing is such a terrible thing really...once you are committed you can't go back really or else it wasn't KNOWING in the first place. So the question I pose to you is what is TRUTH? A feeling, a knowing, a perception, a predestination? If none of those than what?
Some would say every person has his own truth, but wait, yes i have an argument for that too, if one person KNOWS that if he runs off the cliff he will fall and die and that is TRUTH to him, but another person KNOWS that if he runs of that cliff he will in fact fly over to the other side without a scratch though he has never done it before and to him that is TRUTH, wouldn't that be considered false? Maybe that was a silly example but you get the idea. Therefore not everyone can have their own truth because they can contradict each other as well as the facts. But then you can get into what is really fact and yes i do have an argument against myself for that one too so I do not believe I will get into that today. For right now fact is fact. Gravity wins.
So if I have in fact disproved the idea that every man has his own truth, then what are my options left? That there is one truth only and that everyone who does not believe in that truth is wrong, a semi-christian belief, or that there is not truth at all just varying perspectives and the one that is agreed upon the most or the loudest is considered fact? The latter seems unlikely because a couple hundred years ago everybody KNEW that the world was flat, everybody KNEW that the earth was the center of the universe, and now look at what we know today. Sorry if I'm going a little Men in Black on yah, but its a good point. If we KNEW all that stuff was TRUE and it was in fact not, imagine what we will KNOW tomorrow. Yet I believe that this is the most socially excepted and expected form of truth. Evolution is one example.
If you don't believe it you're stupid, but polls show that the majority of people don't even know what all evolution covers, or even the real meaning. They just take the spoon feeding of so called experts that have a loud voice. Often times it is easier for us to understand a story than a truth, a perspective than a reality. Does it mean there can't be some grain of truth in evolution or perhaps even a whole truth? No, it could be true, but the fact that people trust in the loudest truth makes this argument interesting. Its the TRUTH that people hear the most so it becomes what they KNOW, but if what they KNOW turns out to not be the TRUTH then what? You're stuck at square one again.
So if the agreeing on one perspective that may or may not be true is not truth than what is? The christian belief of one truth, one way makes sense in a way, but it also requires a sense of faith and trust in a book that has a rather bloody and unpopular reputation. It also requires you to believe that EVERYONE else is wrong. If you think of it in terms of religion you can understand the significance of that statement. If everyone else is wrong, all religions, that means that those who have diligently memorized the whole frickin Qu'ran are just kidding themselves, their faith is useless and they will be sent to hell for KNOWING a different TRUTH than the one TRUTH. The atheists will for KNOWING something different, and a Bhuddist for his faith in the wrong TRUTH. Does that seem messed up to anybody besides me? This is actually the reason I began to think about truth.
We were at church a couple weekends ago and the pastor was preaching on Predestination, what I have previously believed to be an extremeist Calvinistic belief. Yeah...I was wrong...I had a very strong emotional reaction to what he was saying, upon further examination I realized why. If you do not understand the concept of predestination or have never heard of it before this may be a bit difficult to understand, but it basically means there are a certain group of people called 'the elect' that will go to heaven and the rest will roast in eternal damnation. The pastor was trying to convey that we should feel secure because of this, that our faith cannot be taken away from us. I wasn't relieved at all. Sure there is quite a large population of Christians on the planet, but there are also larger numbers of people who are not, people who KNOW something else to be TRUE and may be punished eternally for it.
It just does not seem right to me that knowing is such a terrible thing really...once you are committed you can't go back really or else it wasn't KNOWING in the first place. So the question I pose to you is what is TRUTH? A feeling, a knowing, a perception, a predestination? If none of those than what?
Monday, August 10, 2009
new update
Its the day before school. Shoot me. I honestly can't stand it. Maybe I'm just overreacting, but i'm just freaking out. All this ap crap and working two jobs is going to be the death of me. On the other hand maybe i'll be better for it. If everything works out the way I want I'll have three jobs by the end of the week...maybe I shouldn't do that to myself quite yet....
Karlie says she doesn't feel bad for me cause a. I'm making a crapload of money and b. cause its my own fault i'm so busy. I agree, but for some reason I can't help being busy. For some reason I'm UNHAPPY when i'm not busy. Weird huh?
In other news, well there honestly isn't much. I got my ears peirced, crazy i know, but for me it is. Since the time four nurses had to pull me out from under a table to give me a shot needles have not been my friends. I guess this was just overcoming a fear because I don't believe I'm afraid of them anymore. I'm actually considering getting a double peirce as soon as i can take the first ones out.
I just got back from a trip in Michigan. If you have never been there, don't worry about it. You're not missing much. The one thing I do like about it is being constantly close to water. I love fishing and boating so I had a fun week as far as that goes. Oh and for some reason the air up there smells so clean, I like that too!
Karlie says she doesn't feel bad for me cause a. I'm making a crapload of money and b. cause its my own fault i'm so busy. I agree, but for some reason I can't help being busy. For some reason I'm UNHAPPY when i'm not busy. Weird huh?
In other news, well there honestly isn't much. I got my ears peirced, crazy i know, but for me it is. Since the time four nurses had to pull me out from under a table to give me a shot needles have not been my friends. I guess this was just overcoming a fear because I don't believe I'm afraid of them anymore. I'm actually considering getting a double peirce as soon as i can take the first ones out.
I just got back from a trip in Michigan. If you have never been there, don't worry about it. You're not missing much. The one thing I do like about it is being constantly close to water. I love fishing and boating so I had a fun week as far as that goes. Oh and for some reason the air up there smells so clean, I like that too!
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Camp! and certification and stuff
So for the next week I'll be going to Twin Lakes as I do every summer. Fun Right?? Um YEAH!!!! I love that camp. Been there every year since third grade, and I plan to work as CIT next year. Possibley a lifeguard since I am certified now.
(If you didn't know that's what I've been doing for the past week)
Certification wasn't necesarily difficult, but it was kind of scary thinking that I might have to save a life. Then they tell you some frickin scary stories about kids drowning with three adults watching the pool and you kind of just cringe in your chair and hope that never happens to you! But the job pays really well, and there are quite a few pools to choose from to work at. And God knows I need the money! Still only working a max of two days a week and its starting to show on my paychecks...where before they were about sixty to eighty dollars now they are about thirty....YIKES!!!
Besides the job i'm keeping pretty busy with my little projects. Learning how to make hemp bracelets, keeping my garden and bonsai nice, and playing guitar and piano, and sometimes cooking for fun (even though my mom says i'm a dislexic cook it's still fun ;] ). The only thing I have to worry about balancing out now is a sport. I think I might go for swimming this year...I've never tried that before and I think it would be fun. No injuries to worry about there!!! If not I may see about dance, but I have a feeling that one is just not gonna work out for me. If none of those work I'll be driving by then and then I may have enough money to do fencing if I want....it's just that its so far away...
I've almost finished my Kate Winslet portrait and it's looking really good so far. I think I'm starting to get the hang of portraiture in general, but I have an excellent teacher. He really is inspiring and he does excellent portraits. I wish I could put one up to show you, one of them is Elizabeth Taylor and it is quite beautiful. I think my next project will be of Hugh Laurie, or maybe Grace Kelly. I got the pictures all ready to go, just debating which one I feel like doing. For some reason men are much harder for me to draw then women...not quite sure why or if that's weird but it's true!
Well I gotta go get ready for work, I'll try and post again before camp!
My regards,
Katie
(If you didn't know that's what I've been doing for the past week)
Certification wasn't necesarily difficult, but it was kind of scary thinking that I might have to save a life. Then they tell you some frickin scary stories about kids drowning with three adults watching the pool and you kind of just cringe in your chair and hope that never happens to you! But the job pays really well, and there are quite a few pools to choose from to work at. And God knows I need the money! Still only working a max of two days a week and its starting to show on my paychecks...where before they were about sixty to eighty dollars now they are about thirty....YIKES!!!
Besides the job i'm keeping pretty busy with my little projects. Learning how to make hemp bracelets, keeping my garden and bonsai nice, and playing guitar and piano, and sometimes cooking for fun (even though my mom says i'm a dislexic cook it's still fun ;] ). The only thing I have to worry about balancing out now is a sport. I think I might go for swimming this year...I've never tried that before and I think it would be fun. No injuries to worry about there!!! If not I may see about dance, but I have a feeling that one is just not gonna work out for me. If none of those work I'll be driving by then and then I may have enough money to do fencing if I want....it's just that its so far away...
I've almost finished my Kate Winslet portrait and it's looking really good so far. I think I'm starting to get the hang of portraiture in general, but I have an excellent teacher. He really is inspiring and he does excellent portraits. I wish I could put one up to show you, one of them is Elizabeth Taylor and it is quite beautiful. I think my next project will be of Hugh Laurie, or maybe Grace Kelly. I got the pictures all ready to go, just debating which one I feel like doing. For some reason men are much harder for me to draw then women...not quite sure why or if that's weird but it's true!
Well I gotta go get ready for work, I'll try and post again before camp!
My regards,
Katie
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